Ok so this started as a joke in the GDT.
The plan: I was going to go live on stickam. ~~~~~~~Alex~~~~~ was going to go into chatrooms and post "omg person at this link _____________ is going to kill himself! EVERYONE PLEASE COME HELP!" What was gonna start as some good old fashioned trolling was about to turn into a **** show.
The beginning: So my live had begun. We posted in the GDT our master plan. Alex went into the chats, and the lurkers began. We had about 22 lurkers to begin with. Noone was coming in. I was looping James Blunt "Goodbye My Lover" and putting eye drops in to pretend to cry. I was having the hardest time not laughing but somehow I pulled it off.
The middle: People began joining. They weren't saying much, but many ST'ers were playing different parts. We had dustin playing the ******* provoker. Zack playing the jesus freak. Everyone else saying DONT DO IT OMG. This is when people started threatening.
The Close end: This is when I put 3 allergy pills of mine (which i have to take nightly) in an old prescription bottle. I then put it into my mouth, and drank water. This is where **** got real. I check my stickam messages and my first is this. I'm not gonna screenshot this one because there's some profanity and im too lazy to edit. This was a girl who couldn't get into my room, but was lurking.
Dude, you're being ****ing selfish if you try to kill yourself now. I mean wtf, I'm ****ing deaf with a bilateral cochlear implant and I've been sexually harassed (yes, raped even) and have been pregnant. But that's not the least of my worries. I lost my father on Dec. 14th, 2004 to a massive heart attack and my mother to breast cancer who battled for 9 perilous years JUST because she wanted to see me graduate from high school but she never got to see me do any of that. After all this happened, I was suicidal and tried killing myself but could not cuz I hallucinated and saw visions of my mother sad. This made me feel like I was being selfish because I have my whole life ahead of me. I'm only 20, but I've accomplished so many things because I set my mind to it. If you really feel like you need to end your life then I think you're being selfish because there are other people out there who have suffered far worse than you... and they still bear the weight... that's because whatever doesn't kill you only makes you stronger in the end.
So, seriously stop being selfish and take action to end whatever problems it is that you're having in the safest way that won't harm you and then advance your life as much as you can.
The very near end: This is where **** just gets out of ****ing hand. People had been calling my police dep't on me talking about suicide (mods dont read that and close this, my police dep't spoke with me and understands that it's the internet and it was a joke so everything is 100% now). So I hear the cops are called and get very very nervous. All of a sudden I see a message from Aurora911 (my area is named Aurora) and I see 911 and just immediately think. Oh ****. Screenshots for proof.
When he said he responded, he had done it twice and his original response was.
Everything was worked out. He's still lurking to make sure I'm not dying. So then people come in getting all angry, so one of my mods kick a person.
At this point I'm still kind of sketched out/nervous. Then the cop messages me again.
That's when I knew it was over! So in the chat I said "Officer if you're gonna lurk just come in and chat with us!"
So as I'm writing this thread, about 2 minutes ago I got another message.
That's when I breathed a breath of relief. And if anyone wants to call shens on any of this go for it. There were plenty of PbN'ers in there to vouch for me. My police dep't made a stickam account just to try and talk me down from suicide haha.
Mods: I didn't think there was anything wrong with this. I'm not encouraging anything on stickam, and everything has been resolved.
PbN'ers in there:
Alex, prouddm5owner, casulty, dustin, dyepballer, maybe some more I'm forgetting.
That's my story!
I'm not giving a TL;DR so if you don't wanna read it get out.